工作之后，那十年的在外求学生涯竟象从记忆里抹掉了似的，如果不是偶尔的触动，平日里从不会想起一丁一点。就好像这个中午，在办公桌前吃完午饭，打开iTouch听歌，困意一阵阵袭来，这才忆起相似的情形。

学生时代在语言中心兼职作助理，每天中午去图书馆的安德鲁饼店买一个三明治，拿到3层的休息室里静静地吃完，然后转到报刊区，从《中国时报》的《人间》副刊一直看到《苹果日报》各色明星的超级八卦，完成雅与俗均与时俱进的过程，然后便拿着South China Morning Post盖着脸，陷进沙发里小寐20分钟。现在想来，那短短的午憩于彼时的我，能从Critical Discourse Analysis的沉重中解放出来一小会，真是难得的奢侈。

嗯，这个午后，突然怀念起那里的报纸，那里的三明治，甚至是我曾经烦得不得了的Fairclough和Foucault. 多想能再把自己埋进那个图书馆一下午。

美丽姐的儿子，也就是陈陈的干儿子，于2008年2月18日早7：45降生在中国北京协和医院，嗯。小伙子据说体重7斤2两，身长未知。还好还好，挺争气的，赶在2月29日之前出生了，打破了美丽姐四年才给儿子过一次生日的念想，嘿嘿。

我刚认识亮的时候，觉得这个男生太高、太man、太北方，因为我一贯喜欢儒雅清秀的南方男子。所以最初我拒绝了他，斩钉截铁的拒绝。

直到荨麻疹和首次青岛之行。荨麻疹爆发的时候，我期待的并不是亮的关心；在青岛的分分秒秒，伴我左右的也不是亮的身影。可是经过那两件事情，我选择了接受他。

再后来，他想要给我婚姻，给我一个家。我却犹豫，不停地犹豫。因为我还会偶尔怀念以前不食人间烟火的罗曼蒂克，会羡慕Patrick的太太总是收到先生为她画的漫画，会在心底里还盼望收到情书。而亮显然是不够浪漫的——他几乎没有送过我玫瑰花，他只会把银行卡给我，说，“你喜欢什么就买什么。”亮更是不细腻的，他只会在我不开心的时候不停的道歉，却几乎揣摩不到我为什么生气。于是，我追问自己，假如有一天，我遇到心仪的那一型，我会不会放弃掉他？

而现在，我想，就在他的臂弯里吧，尽管，人生那么长，路上会有不断的柳暗花明。

You hid behind the curtain

To hide from

The silent sun.

Have you tried again

The noise of a thinking mind

And made it the staple of life?

For 2 years

Have you been drifting

For a “career”

And out of touch with the thinking animal

You used to be.

You got used to it

Or fears deepen

Day in and day out?

I was never a big fan of Jackie Chang, Andy Lau, or Faye Wong. Put it in another way, the HK pop was not my cup of tea at all. The feeling was especially so when I got to know a little about colonialism, which led me to dismiss the HK pop as mere second-hand music. The lyrics, to a large extent, were borrowed from other parts of the world, in particular, of Western Europe, the U.S, Japan, or Taiwan. And the pop stars copied the way their counterparts sang. For instance, Faye Wong cloned Dolerus of the Cranberry (not as good as the latter, though); Leon Lai and Andy Lau had been busy following suit of their Korean peers when the so-called Korean Storm invaded the entire East-Asia.

For years the made-in-HK music was seldom heard of. To certain extent, the situation remains embarrassing to this day.

But I did know there was aboriginal HK music. I admit I perhaps neglected it simply because of my prejudice. So when I caught some of that, my feeling was close to confession for the prejudice. Had I heard Sam Hui, Beyond, and Danny Chan? I had. But I personally ignored them.

(to be continued) 

Been and will be busy for the entire June. But it is worthwhile working hard like this.  

Being an executive assistant is not easy. Very often, if you don’t have the right attitude, you might even look down upon yourself as a secretary playing insignificant role in a big organization. It would be particularly the case if your boss has a temper. It seems that you, the employee closest to the boss, would be the immediate scapegoat who suffers the most.  

But it can also be a shortcut for growth, only if you see the position from a different perspective.  To a fresh graduate with a humanitarian background, it can be a superior position to learn business in three senses. First, the position allows you the chance to be in touch with the senior management. The way that the executives handle business, interpersonal relations, or even behave, can be the best lesson. Second, the position provides the convenience to gain knowledge about the organization, in any respect, as long as you desire to know. This could be extremely helpful when you are still at the stage of trying to find out in what area you are really interested. Last, but not least, it secures you from the possible pains originated from office politics, jealousy, etc. This creates an environment free of disturbance, which is positive for you to focus on the job, and most importantly, to work happily.  

Being an executive assistant is not all for my career, but to be a motivated, persistent individual is.